Writing for Fun

I like writing. I like writing for expressing my thoughts and summarizing things, but my writing skills are very limited. I was never good at grammar of any languages, and my vocabularies are very limited. When learning a language, if you study hard, you can memorize words and some grammar, but beyond that, I think you need some kind of talent. When I answer a question like "what did author want to say in this paragraph?", my answer is usually wrong. I used to argue with my teacher why my answer was wrong without him asking the author what he wanted to say, but I guess I just don't get what other talented people get.
I have another problem with learning literature. When I read a story, I forget very quickly. I can't recall the story after a while. This gives me a pleasure of re-reading novels many times and enjoy them as I read for the first time, but some people can remember the plot, names of characters and so on forever. Once I told this to my chemist neighbor and she was very happy to hear about this. She said that she always had the same problem as mine not remembering the stories she read. As having Ph.D in chemistry, she must be a smart person but she thought there was something wrong with her. Not sure if there was something wrong with her or not, since we might both have problems, but knowing someone with the same problem is somehow comforting.
So I still write with my limited vocabularies and grammar. I used to write stories as a child. As I grow older, I kept diaries. I often write letters to others and enjoyed writing reports. As you become adult and your life becomes routine and nothing much exciting or think about, you lose interest in writing. For me, at least, it was the case. I didn't have much to write about, and people became busy themselves, so there was no one to write to either. Things I wrote became more superficial and I was afraid to write things that I felt inside. Even if that was only for myself, like diary, writing things down means admitting your feelings and thoughts, and this becomes more scary as you grow older. So somehow I stopped writing for past fifteen years or so.
Recently I started writing some blogs. At first, I wanted to offer some advice on things that I was familiar with. Blog articles are very short and not that difficult to write. Then, I decided to write things on this blog for anything that I thought on that day. This is like an open diary anyone can read, but I don't intend to let people in my everyday life to know about this blog. I already told one person, but other than that, it is better to keep this way. The reason is that I might feel like writing about someone that I know, but if people know about my blog, that will limit my writings. I don't want people to second guess if I was writing about them when I write "how to deal with a difficult person".
I think, it is good to write things down somewhere without being judged. It would be great if someone else benefit from whatever I write, but the benefit of writing things down is mostly for yourself. I already feel better confessing this.

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